Wednesday, January 23, 2013

six months

Tomorrow it will be six months since the stroke. Though I've been making lots of progress physically, mentally I'm not well, not well at all. The depression is just too deep and debilitating, crying for hours and hours on a daily basis, and I don't want to add another doctor regimen (psychiatrist) to the list (I don't know if health insurance would pay for it anyway, and I couldn't afford paying for it out of my own pocket). Not taking anti-depressants doesn't make things better, but I feel I already have to take enough pills. Add to that the physical handicaps (weird walking, spasticity in the left leg and arm), and there you have the reason why I don't want to leave the apartment, except when I absolutely have to. People just don't get it, have the *chuzpah* of telling me to be thankful, it could be worse. I swear if I have to hear this one more time, I will commit murder. Sorry, I'm 48, had a stroke, and I don't have thankful in me right now. So people, walk away on your two perfect legs and give me some more tips on how I should behave and feel when/if you face a life changing and debilitating disease for the first time. I know it *always* could be worse, but that doesn't make my condition any better. Okay?

So, back to painting and sewing and secretly hoping that things will improve some more as time goes by.

watersoluble wax crayons and charcoal on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 24 x 32 cm / ~ 9.5 x 12.5"


new work

watersoluble wax crayons and charcoal on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 23 x 30.5 cm / ~ 9 x 12"


 watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 24 x 32 cm / ~ 9.5 x 12.5"

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

new work

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 24 x 32 cm / ~ 9.5 x 12.5"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 24 x 32 cm / ~ 9.5 x 12.5"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 24 x 32 cm / ~ 9.5 x 12.5"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 23 x 30.5 cm / ~ 9 x 12"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 23 x 30.5 cm / ~ 9 x 12"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 23 x 30.5 cm / ~ 9 x 12"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 23 x 30.5 cm / ~ 9 x 12"

ATC sized 2,5 x 3,5"

ATC sized 2,5 x 3,5"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, ~ 12.5 x 18 cm / 5 x 7"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 15,3 x 22,7 cm / ~ 6 x 9"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 15,3 x 22,7 cm / ~ 6 x 9"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 15,3 x 22,7 cm / ~ 6 x 9"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 15,3 x 22,7 cm / ~ 6 x 9"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 15,3 x 22,7 cm / ~ 6 x 9"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 15,3 x 22,7 cm / ~ 6 x 9"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 15,3 x 22,7 cm / ~ 6 x 9"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 15,3 x 22,7 cm / ~ 6 x 9"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 15,3 x 22,7 cm / ~ 6 x 9"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 15,3 x 22,7 cm / ~ 6 x 9"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 15,3 x 22,7 cm / ~ 6 x 9"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 15,3 x 22,7 cm / ~ 6 x 9"

watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 15,3 x 22,7 cm / ~ 6 x 9"


Monday, January 21, 2013

new work

weary
watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 23 x 30.5 cm / ~ 9 x 12"


town
watercolor and charcoal on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 24 x 32 cm / ~ 9.5 x 12.5"


the debate
watercolor, watercolor pencils, charcoal, ink and collage on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 23 x 30.5 cm / ~ 9 x 12"


protecting the weak
watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 23 x 30.5 cm / ~ 9 x 12"


me?
watercolor and ink on 300 g/140 lbs watercolor paper, 15,3 x 23 cm / ~ 6  x 9"

 
 
 


Friday, January 4, 2013

new work

bully

 

stumbling


urban moon


in my world 1


in my world 2


in my world 3


in my world 4


friends in strange places 5


friends in strange places 6


friends in strange places 7


friends in strange places 8


friends in strange places 9